I'm growing in the family where you don't go to hospital or even doctor when you got sick, until the diseases become worst.
and luckily i'm growing sooo healthy, so rare to got sick.
I amm a super planner girl, I always think many steps ahead forrrrrr myself in the future.
So, i always make a backup plan for myself.

But, lately my body is not that good like it used to be, I easily got sick last few years..
I think since I entered the college.
when the weather changes, my body's drop.
when the wind is just toooo cold, my body's drop.
soooo easy, but still.. I am not that kind to go to hospital or doctor for that matter.  ( it become my habit to follow how's my family is doing about it. )

But until some of my diseases or i would like to say to myself 'abnormal' things happen to my body, I had to go to hospital.

and just yesterday, i visited one of my 'past and beloved' routine doctor. ( but hopefully i don't want to visit you that regularry )

before entering the clinic, i need to check my blood pressure and weight as usual.

Me : " Sus, When did the last time i come here ? "
Sus : While opening the previous page : " February last year "
Me : " Woo... it's been a long time yaa sus. How heavy i was ? "
Sus :  " 53 back then. for almost 2 years you just boost up 3kgs, isnt it good right. "
Me : " Wooo.. "

Regards,

We are as human need to remind ourself to keep thankful right?

sometimes, i am wondering in the middle of blank mind..
" What's the purpose of my life? "

What's the goals in my life?

Yes I already set my goals, because i hate doing something without goals.
but, yess.. as human there will be a time for... questioning all the things, right?

Sometimes i'm clueless, What am i doing? until when will i doing this fucking routines?
How to boost up the mood? I am totally lost.

do you notice, all of my posts are not that details.
Still, Privacy has its place.

As the youngest in the family, I feel lost.
When i see my brothers sister already goood for many things.
But what me??

I am in the productive age.
When i see my friends.
I  just see how smart student in school is just a smart student in school.
Not all the smart student could smart at the office as smart as they used to be.

I really see  how my friends in the several industries.
They are really great (many of them).
Who can imagine when the boys who love to play in the school could be a teachers?
Who can imagine when the boys who never cook, could be the famous chef and great entrepreneur??
Who can imagine when the girls can turn to be the famous model on social media?
Who can imagine your friend next to you can be that great in the famous international office?
Who can imagine your very best friend can have so many talent for many great things ??
Who can imagine your veryyy best buddy can be a super famous selebgram?

Do i have that thing to be admire about?

Regards,

10D Spain Portugal by QR Dep. 18Sep

As per title mentioned above, so this sure i would like to share about my opinion, bringing this group.

This group is totally my turning point, it made me much more confident. 

Since I met some rude guests that caused some bad memories in my mind, in the end of this group is totally my turning point. 

I could say, i passed the challenge that I made for myself. 

But, like prayer.. 

something can't work only by we prayed for it. But we need an effort to make it work so it can work. 

so does it..

the success of this group not only because of me, but also because of the guests itself.

thanks to the so gooooooooood guests. 

thanks for being so funny in the bus so the many 6hrs drive being not so boriiiing. 

I think, I really all out for this group. since I was really afraid, because this is my very first time, place my foot in the Europe. 

You guys are so mean for me, I would never forget all of you. 

May the luck always be with me, everytime i bring group. :)

Regards,

Family

Ini foto keluarga yang diambil pada tanggal 18 October 2017 di Raja Kuring.
Ulang tahun Raja Langit (a.k.a my boss eits my daddy) ke 61.
Batik di dapat dari syukur bangett ga sengaja liat bazaar batik di Puri, pas lagi mau siap - siap pulang jaga pameran. ngeliat aja langsung sreg, foto foto beli 3 langsung orang rumah pada oke oke. dan akhirnya beli seragam sampe ke bocah2 kecil nya.

Kami 1 keluarga yang tidak sempurna dan pastinya aneh.
Keluarga yang apa ada nya, sangat amat sederhana walaupun mungkin (beberapa) orang melihat kami wealthy.
Terima kasih kalau bilang kita wealthy. amien amien!
yang baik - baik saya amien-in.

Jadi kenapa saya bilang dia Raja langit?
karena seperti raja langit, kalau raja langit bertitah ga ada 1 pun di khayangan yang berani menolak atau membangkang.
well begitu pula yang terjadi di rumah gue dan dia. Mirip bener.

Pada dasarnya keluarga kami keluarga normal pada umumnya. kami semua tumbuh dengan 'baik' dan 'normal', hidup berkecukupan. Cukup untuk mendapatkan apa yang kami butuhkan dan yaaaaaaa yang kami inginkan juga deh. ehm..

Regards

Respect

Hello! long time no visit this page, hope you still remember me in many ways!

This time I would like to talk about respect.

Respect is an important things in humanity, without respect I don't think it's still called as humanity. 

Nowadays i rarely see people with lots of respect.

I see people doing respect because of hidden things that they want. 

Many many many things that made people point of view' changed. 

Made they perspective's changed. 

I am a person who'd like to think super random things, like a kid. Really. Why that? why this? how could that? how could this?

some random thoughts ever come up my mind, when I am on duty in mall, I am wearing on my uniform and i come in to the stores. The staff directly not that interested to handle me, It's so different when i am not wearing a uniform. 

It's an unfair treatment right?

Am i a totally different when I'm on my uniform?? 

It's so sad sometimes.

People judge from the appearance. how much the clothes that you wear? where do you buy the new bag?? and so on..

I am trying to be a nice kind of woman, still a human being but at least I am trying to.

but no more sad thoughts, continue to the touching line..

I already told you that I am surrounded by kind people. yes it is and yes it's real.

Still I could see a humanity in my surround, respect to they are who (maybe) lower than you. 

buying something just because we are respect thought we don't (really) need or love it. 

I am a super respect for this kind of people and It will remain unchanged for me for a long timeeeeeee~~

Regards

Good Friends Best Friends

I believe in karma.

When  you do good you will get good things. If you done bad, you will get bad things.

pretty sure I believe in it.

***

Last saturday me and my bestfriends had a sweet escape after a ( gak banget ) drama.

Finally we made it. 

a quick escape to Bandung.

five of us.

I love traveling in a small numbers, not so many thoughts not so many desires to be granted.

( From Left ) Me, little baby Bella, Febiola, Jessica, Livia

We were friends since high school, we talked so many things from unnecessary until serious things.

We were a travel mate too before, we had Malaysia Singapore in 2012. (Again) 4 of us.

We talk everything from what we don't like, what we mad at, we sure had to adapt into each other behave but bestfriends will always stick together. though maybe we don't go out really often because each of us have busy busy things.

Since Jessica move to my company, we like to have lunch together again. once a week. it just like a routine for us.

We love to eat BLT ( Our favorite Bakso! yuhuuu! we can eat bakso 1 bowl each person add another special fried rice. we are a monstergirl ) hahahha

Last escape, my friend's baby was also joining us. 

the baby bella.

She is a super cute baby. nice. cute. easy to handle and so on. She is just way sooooooooooo cute!

we can talk easily in front of her, and she did not mind. 

We can sang out loud in the car and she did not mind.

She is just way soooo easy and cute.

This was Our first trip by driving alone.

Thanks to livia who (luckily ) love to drive! hahaha

I only drove into half way to Bandung, only until rest area. 

And the rest, Livia who drove. yuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu... Lucky me!

We talked so many things, we were singing out loud in the car, we were gossiping people yeaaa, we were joking and laugh as hard as Our work hard. With them, how tough life can be sooooooo funny. so shit! hahaha.. But we still talking of serious kind of things.

Each of us are chasing goals in our life.

Febiola is a good entrepreneur, career woman, a wife and good mom. She is pretty good in manage financial. All of us want to work in her company! uh!

Jessica is a good at talking and marketing, she is also good in career, she has a quite high salary. She is a pretty and fashionable one among us.

Livia is good at having new friends, She is way tooooo much care to someone even more to people She just knew, Sooo being a tour leader is just the way she is.

and me? I'm glad to have them in my life. ^^

We love to bully each other so we laugh till hurt. We share many things together. Jacket, Shampoo, skincare, clothes, hat, bag, note book in highschool and so on hhahhahahaha

Hope our friendship last forever. 

Regards,

Parents

Have you ever heard this statement, " if you do good to your parents, if you sacrifice for your parents, You're indeed will be blessed. You will be blessed in much more way. "

Have you??

I personally think, is this true?

I often to let go of good or even gold chance ( i think ) in my life because of unstable circumstances in my home.

I still feel disappointed for what I let go of, because it's something like i am chasing for.

I keep trying to surrender until suddenly I got another chance that bigger than before.

I got another big chance for me.

is not it a blessings from my parents?

Still can't believe with this chance. I am sure will take it. I will and I have to. I wantt it! Excited!

Regards,

Separated

Some other family may survive with separation.

They survive without their family along them.

Some kind like their father go work abroad. Years without family. Season changes without family.

And still they have to survive.

What do I need to do?
Just being grateful.

Regards,

English

Hay guys, you may read all of my posts are in english right?

it does not mean I am good in English.

You can read how poor my tenses.

but why i am not writing in Indonesian?

Well it's because my Indonesian vocabulary is really not well enough too.

errrrrrrrrr...

When I lead group, most of my super kind guests told me to read more books to improve my Indonesian vocabulary.

really ! i swear! seriously! 

My english vocabulary is also not good. but Indonesian is way tooo much kiasan words

Soooo please understand me, well I can't force you to understand me. You guys are not my husband or my family. hahahah

But this is me. 

Regards,

Family

love of family is life's greatest blessings.

***

I was born in a complete family.

a Hard worker father

a loyal mother

2 elder brothers

1 elder sister

and I am the youngest one.

Actually I live in a quite enough family.

I have enough for me.

Actually I get what i want.

But, there's always but.

My parents taught us so hard and bold since we were kids.

We need to earn money for buying things that we want, such like toys and other unnecessary things.

But something like, clothes, School things, books we were well provided.

That's why i am growing be like this kind of woman.

My father is a hard worker man, I think every man have to be a hard worker one to fulfill what his family needs.

I am adore for his work hard and I think it's payoff actually, but human is never enough right.

There's a hard times though, ups and down, rolling like a roller coaster.

Since me and my brothers sister were taught for being soooooooooooooo modest, even in the hard times we did not feel the circumstances affect Us so much.

When i was graduated from high school, my father did not allow me to work at the office where i am working, He wants me to go to University.

I already submitted to one of big university in Jakarta and got A score, but I ignored it.

Why? because i did not know what subject i really want to go at that time, i expected to the higher grade university and I thought it would be a waste if  my father pay for such a not serious me.

So i decided to not go to the University at that time.

I already mentioned before in the older post that me & my father is really identic. We have an identic behavior.

I don't like to change things until it needs to be changed.

Once i buy, I will buy the greatest grade of things and I won't change it until it broken and could not be fix.

and it's all same with my father.

In my old home,

we all have a super long last things. We all have tube tv in each rooms that long lasting, we never change it. I moved to my old home since I was  about 5 till 2 years ago, soooooo it was about 18 years. *clap hands for my familyyyy*

and we never complain about that, because we always feel enough.

or maybe, because we can't complain to our father he is just too superior, what we feel don't suite to us, challenge us to provide it ourself. clap hands to my dearest father

Since i have moved to this house where i am living, all the things are brand new.

and my norak behavior appear. hahaha..

I am not familiar with a flat TV before, a brand new AC and so on. I am not a high tech human. hahahha

Life is hard, I keep trying to remind myself even though how hard my life is, stay grateful.

Regards,

Excitement

I'm jut like a little kid who will have a fieldtrip tomorrow.

I am so excited just to see it!

Can't wait to have time to see it by my own.

Want to see how it goes along with my expectation.

OMG! That was so purfeeect for me! Aaaaah! So in love!

Regards,

Marriage

Marriage is a sacred things, indeed. Everyone wish for once in a life time marriage.

aww, in my current age, my friends one by one is getting married. 

and in my current age, my friends one by one ask me : ' When will you get married ? "

Ouchhh..

I will reply : ' just save your angpao big for me! '


Regards,

Judgement

Don't ever judge someone, if you don't know about her/him. Wether You know, you still not appropriate to judge them, because you don't know how they really feel.

***

In the mean time, I think I meet a  180° kind of person.

They are nice people. I love them in different way. 

One is from the rich family, money is not a really matter problem for them, If we see them from the outside. While the other one is from the ordinary family, I can't say them poor, because well we can't judge them by the outside though. 

Everyone has their own problems, right? 

From the nicest look, from the proper living place, it does not measure how good Their life. 

From the happiest smile, the hardest laugh, it does not say how fun their life (too).

I heard how tough some people's life. 

How They through Their life, well i can't say how them feel, becauseeee i can't feel it though. 

I believe, everyone has a different feeling for what they'd been through though it maybe the same stories, but it will never be the same situations for each other.

Everyone has their own background for being them right now. 

Regards,

Bandung quick escape

Yesterday was so much fun,

I drove myself for the first time to outside Jakarta and everything was good! yeah! 

I challenged myself and i can i say, I did it! Good Job! 

The traffic was smooth, there was only a little bit traffic at Cikampek high way but the rest way smooth!

I love how we gathered, having fun together.

had a happy dinner in the terrace table with a great ambiance and cool weather. 

Everything was perfect.

Playing werewolf like fool hahahaa

Playing card like no end.

Thanks for a great time

I really appreciate it. 

Regards

Heal

The power of mind are 100% works, don't you know that?

Don't you agree that when you want something indeed in your mind, there is something like the universe will do anything to grant it for you?

***

A sad mind will make it worse and a happy mind will make it much better. 

I think that's true.

It's about a mind perspective right? 

I believe in me. I believe i can do anything i want if i want to. 

I believe in myself.

Regards

Cry baby

Oo cry baby cry,

We know this kind of words :

when you were born to this world, Your crying are everyone's joy. 

***

Some of them may say me a cold hearted girl, ever.

Seriously well I am not.

I am a cry baby.

I am just not crying to a cheesy cheap drama.

what makes me crying?

When i see my mom & dad are in a emergency talk. Ooooo, What's that??? isn't talking about heirs maybe? :p

When i watch a dog series.

When i watch a family drama series. 

When i poor myself. 

But, i keep express everything, still what's outside is what inside. :p

If you still judge me a cold hearted girl, it's yaaaaa i don't even care too. hehehee that's me.

Regards,

Haunting Words

If You aware my posting time, so you may notice that my life has just begun at night.

I have rare time in noon to open laptop and play.

Soooo, Do you have any night job to hire me?? :p

***

You know what, I'd love to forget many stories in my life. Example, if someone share some stories, if you don't mention it anymore in the future, I won't remember it anymore. But if you do mention it, maybe i will remember that. Still maybe. Well, a possibility depends on what is your stories about. :)

But, I'd like too remember something in sudden time. Example, when I complained my life how could it be and suddenly I remember one of my middle school's friend, He said to me and shocked me and I think his words keep following and knock me everytime I complained about this kind of life. 

what was his words ? 

He said to me : ' We, as a child supposed to help our parents. helping our parents are our responsibility, right? '

and i swear myself, that words seriously keep haunting me and remind myself, so i can say to myself : ' Oh yeah. Right '

Regards,

Introduction Part 2

This post will tell about my best lover so far. 😘

Because We just passed Our second anniversary but we still not yet celebrate it.

Let it be a words for Him, though He may not read this, I know that.

***

This guy named Augusta Sandra, sounds feminime right? hahaha

He is my best friend, my best lover so far!

Why???

In our 2 years of relationship, we through a lot..

People judgement. this time was really hard for Us, or actually for me. I felt like i want to disappear, some of my friends who wants to talk to me was just friends who only want to hear, not a friend in need and indeed seriously.

uh sorry guys, no more space for you. We can passed it well.

So far, he can accept me for what I am.

for my hard attitude, my mood swings, my sensitivity, my emotional, my condition and so on.

From the first day this relationship began, I say to myself, I will make it work.

I'm trying to communicate everything that i feel.

If i feel uncomfortable, if i feel insecure, If i feel doubt, if I feel etc...

I hope We can make it together.

He is a super family man.

My type of man, from i was a kid, a family man.

Super patient handle me, * I hope he has an infinite patient to me and so do I for him *

He is a super no idea man.

Can i say, He needs me? indeed. HA.HA.HA

he is just like that from the first time, what's different from him is, He is getting fat.😘😘

I know He is a good man through His lack.

and i see how he is trying to, and keep trying to be a positive one.

Tell you one of my goal : I wannabe behind his success. seriously! wait for our project, guys!

Thanks for this second year together.

I'm so appreciate everything you do for me.

I Love you.

Regards,

Introduction Part 1

In this post, I would like to introduce myself.

I hope I could describe myself as well as I used to be..

***

Hay, My name is Daisy Orlana.

since you guys can read my URL, you guys may know how I love myself. *ups*

Well, I am a proud myself for what I've been through and for what I am now.

but, I don't really taking care of my healthy. 

I really like to work, when I'm working, I don't like to be distracted by anything include eating. So you guys can call me a workaholic.

I am a goals achiever.

I can't live without any goals. indeed. It seems like you live for no purpose. I don't want to be useless.

Ah, I am a youngest one in the family of 6. 

father, mother, 2 brothers and sister.

Since i keep monitoring, my attitude & behaviour are 100% my father's side. 

I love to challenge myself, ' if they can do it, sure i can do it as well. '

I live in Jakarta.

going to silver age this year. 

Regards,

Prologue

Hay, been so long since leaving this blog.

Well, I have a previous blog before this, where full of my stories and Agnes know it for sure. 😗

So this blog is a brand new one! * not really brand new because i already created this blog since 2014 and i just posted 1 post.. uh apologize me *

This blog will just be another ordinary blog to express thoughts. 

so this time, let it be a brand new one.

Regards,