The Best Sister in The World

She is such a perfect daughter, best sister and soon a lovely wife.

Well, maybe I'm Prettier and smarter than her but she is totally a perfect one. Her husband to be will be so lucky to have her.

She has a kind heart, taking care my parents patiently, well sometimes she got mad but it won't take long time. She is good at cooking, she is taking care of every little things in my family.

That's why, when she is decided to get married by this year, whole family, especially Mom and me feel so lost.
Actually it's a happy news, a wedding.
but what i feel right now? sad, lonely, lost.

How about Mom?
I'm sure she also feel uneasy, where everyday her big daughter accompany her most of the time patiently, will having a new different path in the far place. Batam.
First action to make an adaption for Mom is taking a nurse. What mostly have done by my sister, is taken over by the nurse. Mom is not a good at adapt, we already exchanged the first nurse whereas the first nurse is much more better than now.
Mom was crying whereas sister just went yesterday to batam for preparing her wedding.

Me?
i feel so big lost.
I can say, i'm being real loved by her. She is really taking care of me for Every little thing. She support me, eventhough what i take will make her activity getting heavy. She always tell me to don't worry.
We chatt. We Argue. but She is really a good sister while me is the bad one for her.

When i came back from college, my niece asked me : "Where is tai ku?" and i answered, " Tai ku is in the far place ". Niece replied : " In the Suk Rudy's yaa? " i feel so.......

So i'm crying while it's supposed to be her happy moment.

am i too selfish? i will miss her bad! Home is never be the same like before, indeed.